Hey beautiful people out there sorry I never got on to blog last night working with one hand is being more of a challenge than I thought it would..
This was a high and low week this week with emotions and finding energy me finding peace of mind. I think me dealing with everything that's giving me a mental block effects my workout my food all of it hasn't been the greatest.
I just need to get refocus and get back on track..
I went out today to peacocks acreage I actually spent a couple days back and forth out there but today was a different day yesterday I just sat around by the fire in relaxed and enjoyed watching the kids skate and today I decided to get up and go for a walk in the snow I did almost 5 kilometers out there by the end of the day I did just a little over 6.
It was nice just having that peace and nature all around me I was able to just sit there for a little while and just enjoy the quiet by myself.
I have had so much that's been running through my head the last little while that I think just having a quiet moment where I could reflect on things that are going on in my life and just have quiet time to myself is exactly what I needed to clear my mind to think...to not think..... to empty my mind.. to be at total peace with nature all around me to just be at peace with myself for 5 minutes it made me feel serene.
I can't change the mistakes I've made I've made them I regret them but I can't change them I think all of us have made mistakes in our lives that we wish we could take back but we can't.
I can't change the person who put on all this weight but what I can do what I can change is go forward learning from the mistakes that I've made learning from the bad choices that I made.
Having and working towards having a healthier body is awesome but fixing your mind is one of the biggest ways that you're going to get there.
People use food as a crutch when their emotional when they're bored when lonely when they're sad and angry they turn to food because food won't disappoint them food won't hurt them.
Being an emotional eater sucks!!
The truth is there are times that I wish I could crawl out of my own body and my own skin...
I'm uncomfortable with who I have become..
I'm uncomfortable when people touch me.
I have created a wall and a barrier around me and I desperately try not to let anyone knock down that wall down or climb over that wall and I'm suspicious of anybody who loves me because I don't love me.... that's my truth!!
I'm like I said a work in progres!!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday tomorrow and that the week is full of promises and no excuses...
Sending positive thoughts and energy your way to anyone reading this..
This was a high and low week this week with emotions and finding energy me finding peace of mind. I think me dealing with everything that's giving me a mental block effects my workout my food all of it hasn't been the greatest.
I just need to get refocus and get back on track..
I went out today to peacocks acreage I actually spent a couple days back and forth out there but today was a different day yesterday I just sat around by the fire in relaxed and enjoyed watching the kids skate and today I decided to get up and go for a walk in the snow I did almost 5 kilometers out there by the end of the day I did just a little over 6.
It was nice just having that peace and nature all around me I was able to just sit there for a little while and just enjoy the quiet by myself.
I have had so much that's been running through my head the last little while that I think just having a quiet moment where I could reflect on things that are going on in my life and just have quiet time to myself is exactly what I needed to clear my mind to think...to not think..... to empty my mind.. to be at total peace with nature all around me to just be at peace with myself for 5 minutes it made me feel serene.
I can't change the mistakes I've made I've made them I regret them but I can't change them I think all of us have made mistakes in our lives that we wish we could take back but we can't.
I can't change the person who put on all this weight but what I can do what I can change is go forward learning from the mistakes that I've made learning from the bad choices that I made.
Having and working towards having a healthier body is awesome but fixing your mind is one of the biggest ways that you're going to get there.
People use food as a crutch when their emotional when they're bored when lonely when they're sad and angry they turn to food because food won't disappoint them food won't hurt them.
Being an emotional eater sucks!!
The truth is there are times that I wish I could crawl out of my own body and my own skin...
I'm uncomfortable with who I have become..
I'm uncomfortable when people touch me.
I have created a wall and a barrier around me and I desperately try not to let anyone knock down that wall down or climb over that wall and I'm suspicious of anybody who loves me because I don't love me.... that's my truth!!
I'm like I said a work in progres!!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday tomorrow and that the week is full of promises and no excuses...
Sending positive thoughts and energy your way to anyone reading this..