SO LET'S JUST BE REAL 2016 SUCKED ASS FOR ME.
I am not even gonna lie i have been told numerous times i have no filter and i say it like it is well quite honestly love me or hate me I AM WHO I AM!
On with the Rant: So this year has been rough im not even gonna lie this year has brought me sadness, anger, frusteration, PAIN ALOT OF PAIN physical pain mental pain ny spirits have been crushed this year has been one my lowest of lows. I have had a steller year (yes I'm being sarcastic) I have lost friends i thought i could trust and count on turns out not so much. My spirits are failing me my body is failing me realisically I AM FAILING ME.
I will say this i have seen my children thrive this year and that makes me happy and proud as a mom i just want that for myself.
YES 2016 SUCKED ASS However there has been some moments!! Kind gesture of Christmas love from a secret santa moments i felt happy treasured & loved. Times where i felt safe and just for that moment happy and peaceful
Just keeping it real... don't want it to seem like i spent 2016 locked in a dungeon.
So health wise it sucks i was in a cycling accident back in June which lead to horrible pain.. I am a stubborn ass so i only had my wrist checked out which led to a brace being on for 3 weeks. I was stupid i ignored the back pain i waited 2 months being in chronic pain everyday taking pills upon pills begging to the high heavens to make the pain just stop.
After i couldn't function and what i mean by that is there were moments i woke up and i couldn't feel the left side of my body or id try to sit up and couldn't without screaming ans crying couldn't sleep this was affecting everything in my life walking, sitting, sleeping it hurt to do it all it hurt doing everything.
After 2 months of stupidity the docs found a crack which led to Cat Scans, MRI detecting I have Spinal Disc Disease And them finding a mass between my L5 /S1.. This pain i have been in lets just say i'd rather give birth to twins!!
I had a spinal procedure in dec which they were injecting pain meds in my spine needless to say it didnt work so back i go Jan 3rd.
So NO!! There was no great weightloss no huge transformation no spartan race it was all a big let down.
I know i have to make different choices different paths ibhave to take doors i have to close so i can open new windows. I have to let go.
Anyways I just basically wanted to say i am back and thank the ones who have messaged me asking what's going on where have you been I appreciate people with true character.
Anyways I'm off to bed I wish all of you Reading This A Happy Safe Fun Filled Goals Met
I am not even gonna lie i have been told numerous times i have no filter and i say it like it is well quite honestly love me or hate me I AM WHO I AM!
On with the Rant: So this year has been rough im not even gonna lie this year has brought me sadness, anger, frusteration, PAIN ALOT OF PAIN physical pain mental pain ny spirits have been crushed this year has been one my lowest of lows. I have had a steller year (yes I'm being sarcastic) I have lost friends i thought i could trust and count on turns out not so much. My spirits are failing me my body is failing me realisically I AM FAILING ME.
I will say this i have seen my children thrive this year and that makes me happy and proud as a mom i just want that for myself.
YES 2016 SUCKED ASS However there has been some moments!! Kind gesture of Christmas love from a secret santa moments i felt happy treasured & loved. Times where i felt safe and just for that moment happy and peaceful
Just keeping it real... don't want it to seem like i spent 2016 locked in a dungeon.
So health wise it sucks i was in a cycling accident back in June which lead to horrible pain.. I am a stubborn ass so i only had my wrist checked out which led to a brace being on for 3 weeks. I was stupid i ignored the back pain i waited 2 months being in chronic pain everyday taking pills upon pills begging to the high heavens to make the pain just stop.
After i couldn't function and what i mean by that is there were moments i woke up and i couldn't feel the left side of my body or id try to sit up and couldn't without screaming ans crying couldn't sleep this was affecting everything in my life walking, sitting, sleeping it hurt to do it all it hurt doing everything.
After 2 months of stupidity the docs found a crack which led to Cat Scans, MRI detecting I have Spinal Disc Disease And them finding a mass between my L5 /S1.. This pain i have been in lets just say i'd rather give birth to twins!!
I had a spinal procedure in dec which they were injecting pain meds in my spine needless to say it didnt work so back i go Jan 3rd.
So NO!! There was no great weightloss no huge transformation no spartan race it was all a big let down.
I know i have to make different choices different paths ibhave to take doors i have to close so i can open new windows. I have to let go.
Anyways I just basically wanted to say i am back and thank the ones who have messaged me asking what's going on where have you been I appreciate people with true character.
Anyways I'm off to bed I wish all of you Reading This A Happy Safe Fun Filled Goals Met